Killed one of my chickens today...it was one I got that someone had given me and it wasn't healthy when I got it.Sometimes I feel like I just take other people's problems...and I shouldn't.I knew the birds were unhealthy when I got them but I didn't think it would come to having to kill them one at a time.Hopefully I won't...It makes me wish I hadn't taken them.It makes me wonder why I try raising animals at all...I hate killing them or seeing them die and eventually they're going to...

And winter just wasn't my season

I was told I have my head in the sand today...likely...''when the boy smiles''...I'm not very happy tonight,life kicked me in the ass today...I let it...There are people who use violence to intimidate other people...one day when there is no pain or death to fear they'll be powerless they'll be nothing...they'll be gone...

 I thaught about changing the name of my blog to EdsBigBadBlog but I descided it wouldn't be worth the effort to figure it out tonight.Today I went to work and did my thing.I enjoy my job it's not so much the job or the money but I feel needed and if not willingly at the very least reluctantly needed which is more important to me than the money.If I can help someome that makes me happy.
 I also thaught about how to change the and I'm doing it....